Today is my husband Ron’s birthday, so he is on my mind. I remember talking to him about what we would do if either of us was dying. He said, “I would continue as I am, making the most of every moment.” I had been thinking for me I’d want to go to Tuscany and Bali and study ceramics in both places, that was until I heard what he said.
After that conversation, and actually before that too, we really did live in the moment. We’d did what we wanted to always. We spent most of our time together even when we were doing something else, like him watching sports or me reading. And we spent lots of time talking so that ultimately, we knew we had said all we needed to say to each other. And of course, we continued talking after that, too.
We didn’t talk much about the past or the future since we couldn’t change anything in the past and didn’t need to make plans for the future. We deeply enjoyed each other’s presence, and we’d find different ways to make each other happy.
I was concerned about the pain that was constant for him in the area of his kidneys, so I Googled it and found a reflexology technique I could do for him. So, every night when we went to bed, I gave him a foot rub concentrating on the pressure spots that are supposed to affect the kidneys. I don’t know if it actually helped, but we both enjoyed giving and receiving that precious touch.
I knew he was ready to go when the time came, and he went on hospice. Knowing that he was ready made his last week easier for both of us. After he transitioned was still hard, but easier to accept knowing that he was finally out of pain.
I wrote in my journal a lot after he died, and I realized that I was focusing on each present moment. I could make it through one moment at a time. I reached a place where I was asking myself what I was supposed to do now. I realized I did have a future and that I wanted to make the most of it. That question came back to me of considering what I wanted to do in each moment, and I understood that my answer was the same as his. I am making the best of every moment, and I did go to Tuscany and Bali to study ceramics too.
What would you do if you knew you were dying?
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