Waiting . . . .

Have you ever thought about how much time you spend waiting? Where do you wait? Often, we are in line at the bank, the grocery store, the fast food place, the post office, the car pool lane; or we wait at the doctor’s office, the airport, the dentist’s office, the restaurant.  How often to you wait for someone or something?  Maybe you are waiting to hear if you got a loan, what grades you earned, a package coming in the mail. Just think about the hours of your life that you spend passively waiting.

I have thumbed through magazines I wasn’t interested in waiting for appointments. I have spent way too much time in lines at airports hoping I won’t miss my flight. I’ve spent time waiting for that special invitation to arrive. I also spend time at night waiting to fall asleep. I am sure if I added all these minutes and hours, it would add up to maybe years of my life.  When I paid attention to this, I decided I must change my ways.

I used to play solitaire on my phone while waiting until I started thinking that I was just wasting my valuable time.  Now I keep a book to read and a book and podcast to listen to on my phone instead. Other times I realize how freeing it is to not be looking at my phone.  Sometimes I look around me and seek the most beautiful thing I can see. Other times I see if I can get someone to smile just by smiling at them. And I’ve made new friends by striking up a conversation with someone waiting where I am waiting too.

I used to wait until my pile of important papers got too high before I decided to file them.  This just makes a mess. Or I wait too long to do the laundry till the task seems overwhelming.  Now I pay attention to when I am doing something like this so I will do things sooner when it doesn’t take so long.

What does this have to do with grief? This can start before a loved one dies. You’ll find yourself worrying about what test results will be or how a treatment or surgery will affect your loved one, and how those results will affect your life. You may find yourself waiting for someone you love to die because it breaks your heart to see them suffer, then you feel guilty for even considering that. After a loved one passes, we may be waiting to feel better or for our grief to be over. We may even find ourselves waiting to die so we don’t have to be alone anymore.

My question for you is, how does any of this waiting serve you? In my case, most often I see that waiting doesn’t serve me at all. I realized how many moments were passing me by, wasted.  And I realized how valuable those moments are. Waking up to this allowed me to make use of those moments in ways it serves me.

I seek ways to complete tasks sure, but beyond that, I seek ways to make each moment the best it can be.  For instance, in a moment I could write a note or address a card to someone I would like to cheer up, to stay in contact with, or to just tell them I love them. I could take a moment to take a deep breath and blow out any tension I am holding. I could take a moment to appreciate the beauty of a flower I see. I could take a moment to discover a healthy recipe I could make.

Ron and I had a big bottle we’d but our change in so that it didn’t weigh down our pockets or my purse.  When the bottle got full, we would dump it into the machine at the bank that sorted and counted it. Usually, we were surprised by what the total was, and we’d always use that money to do something special that we wouldn’t have otherwise.

Think of your moments of waiting as valuable currency that you could put in a bottle or a special bank just for moments. When you add up all those moments that you lost waiting in the past, in the present now you can use what you have recognized or saved to make special moments for yourself and your loved ones that you thought you didn’t have time for.

Every single moment is valuable. Experiencing each of those moments with love and joy rather that stress and anguish is a gift that you can give yourself every day, every moment.  You will be so glad you did.

 

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