grieving

Cultivation

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Where I live in upcountry Maui now, I have the biggest garden I have ever had, and it takes lots of attention. Even with two people who help me, the tasks seem never ending. I am not complaining, however, because the rewards are worth all the time it takes.

I grow tropical flowers, fruit trees, lots of bananas, herbs and vegetables, and flowers. When we first moved here, one large section of our yard was covered with what looked like yellow golf balls. I discovered that those balls turned out to be one of my new favorite fruits, lilikoi, otherwise known as passion fruit. I found lots of ways to use lilikoi, but there were so many of them! I also had huge racks of bananas and many papayas.

Not wanting the food to go to waste, I put an invitation on the Nextdoor computer app for people to come to my house to take what they could use, and people came! With the new friends we made, we decided to meet and share the abundance of our gardens every Friday. That was 9 years ago. We still meet every Friday.

Through those years we have become special friends. We have celebrated weddings and birthdays and holidays. We have supported each other through medical challenges and funerals. We consider each other Ohana, the Hawaiian word for family. I cherish these experiences and friendships.

This wonderful Ohana has thrived through our mutual support. Just as we cultivate our gardens by replenishing the soil, planting seeds and plants starts, pulling weeds, pruning, watering, and harvesting, we cultivate our friendships by staying in touch, sharing what we grow, sharing advice and skills, and we tend to both our gardens and friendships with love.

I share about the Ohana we created because loneliness can be one of the biggest challenges we face while grieving. When you find yourself lonely, be creative and think of how you can create your own Ohana. If you’d like to know your neighbors better, try inviting them to your home for a cookie exchange or dessert potluck. If you have friends you’d like to see more, invite them over for a game night. Or invite someone to go on a walk with you.

 

The key to developing relationships is to tend to them. Friendships thrive with cultivation. Think of something you would love to do with your friends, then do whatever you dream up. And keep doing it. That’s cultivation. There is no need for loneliness in your life.

 

The Grief and Happiness Alliance

Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief

My email is emily@griefandhappiness.com

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Moving Forward

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Often, I hear that people think we must get over grief. I disagree. I see grief as something that starts with the realization of the major changes that come with the transitions you experience. Though there is a time that you realize you are grieving, chances are there won’t be a time that you say, “I’m done now. My grieving is done.”

I grieve for so many people and things like my high school classmates who died in accidents. I grieve the passing of my friends from a myriad of ailments. I grieve the loss of innocence I experienced. I grieve the loss of pregnancies. I grieve the loss of patients I cared for. I grieve the loss of most of my relatives. And most of all, I grieve the loss of my husbands.

I could go on and on about all the loss I have experienced, but I chose instead to focus on all the love, respect, lessons, and good memories I experienced as a result of each of these losses. My heart expands while carrying these people and experiences, and though my physical heart may be about the size of my fist, my loving, spiritual heart is as large as my imagination and continues to expand. I carry the imprint of all these losses on my ever-growing heart.

How wonderful it is that my heart always has room for anyone I care about. I focus on the love in my life, and this brings constant, beautiful positivity to me. As I continue to move forward in my grief, my happiness expands beyond measure. Yours can to when you focus on your love.

 

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Fear

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Are you afraid? Most of us have some kind of fear. When you identify what’s causing you to fear something, you can choose to do something about it or let it go.

Does this sound familiar? “I’d love to spend more time with ___, but she’s so busy. I don’t want to bother her.” The way this demonstrates fear is your concern that she might say no and you fear being rejected.  You may not realize this is what is happening. If you want to spend more time with her, send her a text, or call her on the phone.

Making up stories that may not be true is easy to do, and you probably don’t recognize that you do that out of fear. While grieving, we may hold on to thoughts or old patterns of behavior out of fear.  Maybe you always went to breakfast on Saturdays with your loved one, and you miss that.  Try finding a new place to go for breakfast and invite a friend to go along. In the new place, people will be less likely to ask you about your loss.

Sometimes the fear is that you will fall apart when you are experiencing the powerful emotions that can come with grief. Know that you won’t fall apart, whatever that may mean.  And if you do find yourself crying, go ahead and cry to release whatever that was that caused you pain. A good cry clears the air like rain does. Release all those feelings that come up while you are crying.

Sometimes we fear something we can’t even define. If you start feeling something you are unfamiliar with that frightens you, try writing about it asking yourself, “Why is this issue bothering me?” Hopefully you’ll discover that what you were feeling frightened of isn’t even real. Or maybe you’ll discover there is something you can do about the issue. When you know why that fear has come up for you, you can let it go so that it will no longer have any power over you.

When you find yourself noticing when fear slips into your life, be prepared and diffuse its power. In the words of Carol Staudacher, “With grief, the way back is the way through.”

While grieving, each day is better than the day before. As you move through your grieving process, notice each time you find yourself smiling or taking a deep breath and know these actions are supporting you in moving forward,

I know you can do this.

 

The Grief and Happiness Alliance

Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief

My email is emily@griefandhappiness.com

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Grief and Age

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When my brother-in-law died in his 50’s, I saw a significant change in my sister. Observing her, I saw the balloon of her happiness deflate. She became addicted to watching television and allowed the rest of her life float by as she sat in her recliner. A few years later, a medical emergency hospitalized her, so I drove the five-hour trip to visit her. She was still in her chair. Her daughters told me that she never returned to the bed she had shared with her husband because he died there. I bought her a new bed and redecorated her room while she was hospitalized, so she finally went to bed though she still spent most of her time in that chair.

An article was recently published in the Journal of the American Medical Association, JAMA July 29, 2024, saying how grief can age a person. As I read though all the diagnoses thought to be caused or worsened by grief, my sister had many of them, including a broken heart. Though now I am dealing very well with my grief having learned to live a healthy life, I saw me in that list too. I noticed on that list inflammation and hypertension, also known as high blood pressure. My blood pressure was so high that I had to be seen by a cardiologist.  That doctor told me I had PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. That made sense to me after caring for two husbands until they died. Fortunately, I saw my blood pressure normalize with treatment.

If you have new symptoms or are having flare ups of previous medical conditions, please go to your doctor. Taking good care of yourself is always a good idea, and it is essential while grieving. I have heard people who are grieving tell me that they just didn’t care about their physical health anymore. Be aware if you are having those thoughts or medical symptoms. Though they may be triggered or worsened by your grief, seek medical help.

While grieving, many people seek help from a therapist. If you’d like to do that, make an appointment.  Talk to others you know who have sought help to see if they can recommend someone, or your doctor may know of a good therapist. Grief groups or Death Cafés can be great support. If you try one and don’t relate to it, try another. You have a vast array to choose from. Try looking online for support, like the Grief and Happiness Alliance weekly gatherings which are free.  You can sign up to attend here. https://www.griefandhappiness.com/the-grief-and-happiness-nonprofit-organization

I suggest you think about any symptoms you have now or worsened conditions you already have. Please seek help in the way that serves you best.

While the JAMA article does indicate that grief can age you, it doesn’t have to if you take really good care of yourself.

 

 

The Grief and Happiness Alliance

Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief

My email is emily@griefandhappiness.com

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Being Alive

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I vividly remember the moments when Ron, Jacques, my mother, my mother-in-law, and my aunt took their last breaths. Ron, mom, Fran, and Aunt Ila all slipped peacefully from this physical presence. Jacques had a look of panic. I felt like he wasn’t ready, like he didn’t really believe his time had come.

I am recalling this today after seeing a picture of someone and noticing his drastic change of expression after experiencing a traumatic and possibly fatal occurrence. Usually he looks angry or smug, but his look today was different, almost serene. I have never seen that look from him before. I wonder what people think when they look at me?

In reflecting on all these experiences, I thought about my general expression and what I would like it to project. I frequently say that I am happier than I ever have been, so from now on, I choose to smile so all who look at me can feel the warmth of that expression and reflect that happiness. Unlike the people I mentioned earlier, I now know my plan is to peacefully pass with that smile on my face when my time comes, and I plan to live every moment I have left to the fullest in the meantime.

Next week is my 75th birthday. I didn’t think I would live that long. Dad didn’t. Ron didn’t. I feel like I am on bonus time now, so I plan to make the very most of it. And I don’t feel old at all. I’m not even sure what being old feels like.

Although I have made it my objective to live in the moment, I have been somewhat lax in implementing that.  My new intention is to pay attention, to experience each moment, to revel in the time I have been gifted.  For instance, I love to paint and have a project in mind I have been looking forward to for weeks, but each day I have found myself doing something else. Today is the day I am painting!  I am also completing my new book proposal. And I am taking time to read and relax intentionally.

Being alive, to me, is living in the moment, following inspiration, taking excellent care of myself, providing comfort and compassion to others, taking deep breaths, enjoying all the beauty in the world, and focusing on what is good and right.

In the moments I have left, my intention is to pay attention to being alive! How about you? What does being alive feel like for you?

 

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Let’s Connect

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Sitting alone in the evening was such a tough time for me in early grief. I longed for someone to talk to about my day or what my dreams were. I turned to my journal at times like this where I could pour my heart out and figure out what I wanted, where I was going. Does this sound like experiences you have had?

When dealing with loss, I found that people who I considered friends tended to stay away from spending time with me. I was surprised at that.This was the time I longed for their presence, but they weren’t there.  I justified the absence by telling myself that they must be busy. When I had an opportunity to talk to a friend, I told her I missed her and would love to spend time with her. I was surprised when she told me that she was sorry. She wanted to spend time with me, but she didn’t know what to say. She didn’t want to make me feel worse by saying the wrong thing. Wow. What a shock.

I was looking at my loneliness was something that someone else had to fix, but while sitting by myself I knew that I had to take the first step. I remembered that some of my friends ha asked me in the past had asked me how to cook vegan food that tasted good  since they knew I was a certified vegan chef.  With this inspiration, I asked some friends to come to my house to learn how to fix a tasty vegan meal. My friends were happy to join me knowing they had something positive to do together.

Reaching out to who I wanted to be with worked for me. I invited people to go to concerts, to classes, to a film festival, and to my house to make Christmas ornaments together.  Relieving them of their perceived obligation to deal with my grief opened the way for us to be comfortable spending time together. As they saw how I could speak comfortably about my husband who had transitioned allowed them the comfort to join in the conversation when they wanted to.

I found much comfort in writing about what I was dealing this a decided to reach out to people who were seeking ways to deal with their grief. At that time, I didn’t know that many people on Maui who were driving, so I put a message on MeetUp and invited people to come to my house to write about grief together and then talk about it. Suddenly I had a new group of friends who met regularly who were grateful to have found a caring group of friends to share experiences with.

Now I offer you the opportunity to write about things dealing with grief, then share what you wrote about with a whole new groups of friends who get you, like I do. We gather on Zoom once a week and our Grief and Happiness Alliance Nonprofit Organization covers the expenses so you don’t have to pay a thing. People who come to the gatherings have told meow much they appreciate what we do together and the new friends they make.  I have made many new friends from around the world by participating in in this group.

I invite you to connect with me and with your new friends who all are dealing with grief and loss. Much comfort comes from this practice of self-care. And I get to meet you and know you, and share with you, and I love that opportunity. Pease join us! You can make a reservation each week by clicked on this link.

I look forward to connecting with you!

 

 

The Grief and Happiness Alliance

 

Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief

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The Grief and Happiness Alliance

Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief

You can listen to my podcast, Grief and Happiness, by clicking here

You can join the Grief and Happiness Alliance which meets weekly on Sundays by clicking here

You can order the International Best Selling The Grief and Happiness Handbook by clicking here.

You can order The Grief and Happiness Cards by clicking here.

You can order Loving and Living Your Way Through Grief by clicking here.